torn to pieces.

I am feeling very seperated these days, as if parts of me are water and the other oil. I don't feel whole, i feel like i am pieces trying to be put together. I think part of it comes from over analyzing myself and trying to figure out where i belong. I feel like a stranger sometimes in church and an outsider at work. There are parts of me that go every where, but i feel like none come together and make sense. I've been battling this most recently while chatting with a friend. He met me before i went hippie and became more liberal. I was content the way i was, and i feel like i rebelled. But i am not so uncomfortable with the choices i have made, i am just uncomfortable explaining them. I feel torn between a christian and a secular world. and that's where i'm at.