warning: way over dramatic

I want to be a nurse. That's all there is. I want it. Desperately. Passionately. Obsessively want to be a nurse. I want to take care of people. I want the little RN next to my name. For the past 3 years, I have taken pre-requisites. I have learned my bones, muscles, viruses and bacterias. I have taken the GRE's multiple times, spent multiple sums of money on GRE study material.

I have sent out applications to numerous schools numerous times, only to get numerous rejection letters. Three years worth of wait lists and rejection letters. THREE YEARS!

Until Tuesday.

I was accepted in to Massachusetts General Hospital's
Institute of Health Professions' accelerated bachelor of science in Nursing.

FINALLY.

So, what's the issue? How the hell do I pay for it? No idea. Not one. Ok, that's not true. I need money, I need loans. And I can't get them. Remember, I am stupid. I have poor credit thanks to my undergraduate years, and stupidity. And remember, I don't have family there to support me. I don't have a daddy to come run over and sign my loan. I am on my own.

I guess it's my bed, and I need to lie in it. But man, it sucks. A lot. I don't like this bed, and I have no frickin' clue on how to get out of it. NO IDEA. I claim to be Miss Independent, and in reality, I so desperately depend on other people, it's not even funny. At all.

Help is what I need.
I need money. I need confidence. I need a co-signer for a loan.
I need to increase my credit score. I need to decrease my debt.
I need help.

Can you help me?

Please?